A Step in Faith

Does God speak to us? I am convinced that he does. While he doesn't speak to me through my ears, He does speak to me through thoughts and feelings. There are times when a thought will come to mind that has an associated emotion that just leaves no doubt as to where it came from.

I think our Lord speaks to all of us this way. For too many years I was so self centered that I didn't even realize that this was happening. I wonder how many wonderful opportunities and blessings I missed because I failed to pay attention.

I had one of those moments just recently. I sat down in front of the computer, thinking about what I might write about. Then out of nowhere came the thought "what are you doing?". I started this blog for two basic reasons. The first was to share what our Lord and Savior has done in my life. The second was to see if his will would be for me to earn some income on line.

I feel like there is a bit of a conflict with the way I have gone about this. Writing about God, who has blessed my life in so many ways, and then surrounding it with advertising doesn't seem right now. I think I was paying too much attention to what I wanted and not enough attention to what he might have me do.

I overlooked too many things in putting this blog together. First off, God's Word tells us that he will not only take care of us, but that he is eager to do so in an abundant way. If we believe in him, trust in him, and rely on his will for us, we shall never want for anything. How I managed to forget this is beyond me at this moment.

My very first mistake was trying to tell my sweet Lord how I wanted him to bless me. I wanted to make money by working on the internet. Maybe this is his will for me, but maybe it's not. God knows no limits and if I put restrictions on how he might send me blessings, then I am sure to miss out.

The Lord has done some things in my life that defied all logical reasoning. Let me give you one example. If this tends to make you think I'm crazy, that's okay because it had me wondering for awhile. We had a situation where we had more obligations than we had money. I saw it coming in advance but I couldn't come up with a solution. I turned it over to prayer and then refused to worry about it anymore. As the bills came in I prayed about them and then paid them. I figured that the worst thing that could happen would be that we wouldn't be able to pay them all and we might have to survive on what food was already in the pantry.

Now for the strange part. Not only were we able to pay everything, but we were able to buy groceries and have some money left over. No matter how I try to figure this out, I can't. We simply did not have enough coming in to cover everything but in balancing the checkbook, all the math worked out. I told you that you would think I was crazy. Every time I think about this, it brings to mind how Jesus fed a multitude of people with five loaves and two fishes. If he could do the one, he certainly could do the other.

I am telling you all of this because I am pulling all advertising from this blog. I will allow my Lord and Savior to bless us through what ever means he chooses. I will still work the internet and maybe he will choose to bless that work, but it will be completely separate from this. From now on this blog shall belong to God and be used to do his work. I am stepping out in faith and am anxious to see what God will do in my life next.